the moment between transformation

while thinking of Chrystal Clements

tree formed while memories flooded

de buurvrouw?

de buurman?

4:00 am

My Father on the Moon

My Mother and Father Divorce

My Mother the Angel

My mother died 31 years ago.  I don't know the date....but I think the month was June.  I have never been able to remember the date.  When I was young I thought my mother turned into an angel and left the earth to help God.  This is what my sweet grandmother told me.  I am sure she became something else...but the God part...well....let's just stop there.

Here is a picture of my mother 10 years before she became an angel.

This post is in her honour...and also for all those who have lost a parent....or parents at a young age.  There is always something not right inside after your mother disappears....probably at any age....fathers as well of course...but there is something more tragic about losing your mother.

I am also not usually this sentimental....but somehow it feels right at this moment.

I am now 10 years older than my mother.

‪Amy Winehouse - Love Is A Losing Game‬‏ - YouTube

‪Amy Winehouse - Love Is A Losing Game‬‏ - YouTube

Vincent's depressing birch forest.

after having dinner with a friend in Berlin (Vincent) he told a story about how he found birch forests to be very depressing. I thought this was interesting because I always found them to be uplifting as the white bark was always a wonderful change from the majority dark green found on most road trips in Canada.

Bert looking at a book in Berlin

23/07/11

Jesus rolling

and again....just Jesus doing something normal.....rolling a cigarette. I'm sure he would have smoked.

Jesus in a short dress

just Jesus in a short dress. nothing else to say really.

fanny pack lady in beer garden, Berlin

a fast sketch of a lady in Berlin. fanny packs are usually associated with tourists..but I am really sure she was a local.

footless, handless and homeless in Rome

another Rome reaction. was a wonderful city full of amazing beauty and tragic lives.....where is god?

self portrait in front of green and blue background

not really me but sort of me in a non representational way.

view from Berlin apartment

Berlin is addictive and I know it will call me back again. I will obey. Almost time to go back to lovely Amsterdam.......but it has more competition now.

Bert cutting mushrooms in Berlin

The apartment was small....the lights sounded like birds.....the city was amazing and the mushrooms....although surprisingly difficult to find....were delicious in Bert's yummy mushroom pâté.

German landscape as seen from a train

when you take the train to Berlin you travel through a lot of German countryside. you will....of course...see wind turbines. there are thousands. I think they are amazing to watch and often menacing. there is something monstrous about them.....the same feeling I get from skyscrapers....slightly terrifying.

Madonna With Child

digital drawing

I have....almost completely...switched to digital media for drawing. I almost always use my iPad and my bamboo stylus to draw and even paint. for me it works...and I really like this medium....but....I want to be able to print images....and print them so they look nice. not just you run of the mill printer prints...but something a bit more special....I don't want them printed on canvas....but instead on nice paper. I would like them to have a "litho" type look....nice and matt with a bit of texture. I wonder if there is a printer on the market that does this....? I wonder indeed....? do you know of a good printer?

Gemäldegalerie Entrance Hall

I was busy drawing this when suddenly a huge smelly man decided to sit right next to me...and in doing so crushed me with his huge back pack. he could have chosen from at least 11 empty seats...but instead he wanted to sit on top of me. I moved to the next seat....he said....sorry. I don't often do architecture drawings...but somehow interiors lead easily to abstraction. I like that.

no.....I will not post the historical layers of the last drawing.

I looked at the layers again and decided they are not interesting at all. maybe the drawing is finished.

chai tea in Berlin

it was big and sweet and full of spice. best damn chai tea I ever had!

cripple in kreuzberg

In January I started this drawing. it was really just a test....to get to know the app I created it with. it progressed from a bunch of scribbles to a semi formed figure. well....it was not really a success but I saved the image anyway.

last Tuesday I woke up early in Berlin and cycled to a neighborhood called Kreuzberg. I was planning to make a hair appointment at a place I saw the day before. I parked my bike a block away and walked to the salon. when I arrive the shop was not open yet. I was looking in the window to see the hours when I noticed that a crippled man was wheeling his way towards me.....while moaning something in German. it sounded urgent...but I could not understand him....so I walked away to find a place to have a coffee. as I walked away I turned around to see what the man was doing...and to my surprise his pants were around his ankles and he was leaning against a parked van....having a poop.

well....the drawing I started in January was like a premonition to the cripple in Kreuzberg. the only thing I had to add to the drawing was the poop.

work in progress...no it's finished.

it is raining now in Berlin. the weather until now has been fantastic...so an afternoon of rain is ok. this is a drawing I worked on a bit today. not sure what it will become...maybe it will remain the same.

something from Berlin. xxx

Dinner With The Possessed

Last weekend I had dinner with friends.  I thought I would take a picture to commemorate the evening.  So I did.

The camera revealed something unexpected and startling!  My hostess is actually Possessed.  No fibbing.  Just look at this picture.

I wanted to send this picture... immediately to a Ghost Whisperer...but I decided this was not necessary.  The photo is proof enough that  ghosts really do exist.

My hostess....with all her possession...is really one of the sweetest girls alive.  No really she is alive!

Last Sunday

This is a video.  Not musch to say really.  It is what it is.  What is it?  I have no idea...it just is.

Queen B in Berlin

Today I leave for Berlin.  The Queen of the Netherlands was there earlier this year.  I hope the weather is better for me.

Queen B in Berlin

Flying causes me stress.

This drawing titled 'the rape, judgment and pregnancy of sister Rosie' was created while flying back from Italy.  I hate flying.  It terrifies my to no end.  I needed to concentrate on something other than flying.  So this is what I drew.

the rape, judgment and pregnancy of sister Rosie

The flight was ok.  Smooth and fast.  I was happy and fairly content.  I will do this more often when I have to fly.

The drawing started with just the blue splotches in the background...then the figures emerged gradually over the duration of the flight.

The title came to mind after the drawing was complete.

My First Blog

Blog Blog blog.  Bloggity blog blog blog.  Blogger blogging blog and blog blog bloggity blog.  Blogs blogging blogger blog blogging blog blog blog.

With that said I want to share things with you, the people of the Internet.  Now that I have an iPad I tend to do most of my drawings...all of them at the moment...in the digital realm.  I thought a blog would be a good place to share these images....thoughts.....drawings...whatever....just a little place....other than Facebook...to share things from my brain.

Today I am leaving on a train to Berlin.  I hope I will be able to post something while I am there.  I will be walking around everyday with my camera and my iPad....taking in the city and making interpretations.

Till then!

XXX